At the age of 8 I got access to porn by finding some on my family phone I didn't even know what is it after a year I got access to a porn site blue one ig its already known anyways at 12 I used to play games on my dads phone then by mistake I opened the browser and I wish I didn't till this day it was all porn and i was a kid I didn't even know what I was watching just watching like a vid or 2 a day while my family were a way or somethin at 15 I got my first laptop and our internet was not family safe so that's where I started hoarding shit from a 128GB laptop hard to a 7TB so from 15 till 20 all I was doing is hoarding porn and every year I try to stop I delete everything then a week later I come back to fill the hard and spend money on tech stuff to make hoarding easier or more efficient, did it ruin my child years ? No cuz all I did every day was playing and having fun watching a vid brainlessly didn't hurt me back then at all cuz when you watch somethin that you know nothing bout all you see is moving shit and people you don't even remember it after waking up at that age but now when I look back at every second I wasted and hid in the corner so no one can see me or hear shit just keeps digging a hole in my chest so deep that I can't forgive my dad sometimes and now I can't even stop it having a room by myself and free access to everything with parents having a trust in me leaving me on my own with school and finals so can't even leave the room with brainless friends I have who can't control their shit or help each other control their shit , does it really effect me now days? Nah but did it ruin the younger me and the opportunities I could have ? Maybe I'm just sad bout the hours I waste on this shit rather than improving myself I like learning languages, coding, talking to people, getting out, eating with someone, ig after all it may ruined me a bit and my social life anyways imma go study for my finals.
-Sry for my shitty English :C
-Sry for my shitty English :C
